wow. hindi na pala ako nakapagupdate last week. har.ü uy, bagong layout. ENCANTADIA parin. steg.ü

what's up, michan? la lang. i just got the chords of I Give My All, Here I Am, and Now That You're Near by Hillsong. mga kinakanta sa CFC Youth For Christ. kinapa ko lang naman. imbento. di ko alam One Way. hehe...

SA MGA WALANG SAWANG BUMIBISITA SA BLOG NA ITO: salamat ng marami. salamat din sa mga napapadaan. wala lang awayan, kasi gawaing duwag yun. db? kung sino mang sugo ng dilim ang nagtag sa ~chanmich account ko [at ginamit pa ang ngalan ni aliza, na nananahimik at walang ginagawa sakin], MAGTIGIL KA NGA. actually, DALAWA YUN e. ung isa ang name e ??? at sabi "PATHETIC BLOG". e pathetic pala e, bakit ka bumisita? nagawa mo pang magtag. ayus ka rin. haha.

"sinong sawa? sinong galit? sumigaw ngayong gabi... HALLELU, HALLELUJAH..." - naLSS lng.üüü

comment2 naman dyan. tamad nio ha. hehe... nga pala, dapat asa NBA MADNESS ako kanina. kaso tinatamad ako at di ako pinayagan. ANG GALING NINA ABI. nanalo sila tickets at posters. malay ko ba kung ano yun. hehe... GRADUATE NA AKO TOMORROW SA AKING ADBANS LERNENG sa isang subject. la lang.

tama na ito. nakakatamad [di naman ako masyadong pilipino nito e no?]. I BELIEVE IN YOU SO MUCH I COULD DIE FROM THE WORDS THAT YOU SAY. YOU'RE CHASING THE GHOST OF A GOOD THING. - dashboard conf.üüü

adieu. =p

Currently listening to: Hale
Currently reading: Joele's email
Currently watching: none
Currently feeling: hungry

kakagrad ko lang sa Justo. ang galing. ganda performance namin ni abi. mej mahina pero ang ganda. kahit umaambon2, tumila siya nung kakanta na kami. gulat nga ako dahil PINAGNATIONAL ANTHEM AKO ni kuya gilbert kasi di daw dumating yung choir. huwaw db? in demand. =p

after non, nagsimba kami nila ma at abi sa OLA. dun na kami inabot ng bagsak ng matinding ulan. we had no choice, kaya sinugod namin ang ulan. sobrang lamig, lalo nung kumain pa kami sa Johnny's. la lang. eto ang malupit kay mama e... nanginginig na kami sa lamig pero nagawa pa niyang dumaan ng PALENGKE para tumingin2 ng isda! sweetness ng nanay ko.üüü

nga pala, sa june 12 [araw ng kalayaan], pupunta kaming mga YFC somewhere malapit sa cherryhills. SERVICE ITO. magpipintura kami ng bahay2, hollowblocks and all. steg. experience ito. saya to for sure. bago man lang magpasukan, may pahabol ang summer sakin. ITO ANG MALUPIT NA SUMMER, WALANG SWIMMING2... TRANSFORMATION OF MYSELF INTO A BETTER PERSON -- ito ang summer.

[nabasa nio na ba yung entry before this one? laln. saya ng buhay. har...ü]

PSST. may narealize ako. to forgive someone, i don't have to wait for him/her to approach me. asking for a sincere apology is not that easy. i'll just have to let go of my feelings. GALIT PARIN AKO, oo. nakakaiyak talaga kapag naiisip ko na yung taong di mo ineexpect na paglalaruan ka, siya pala mananakit sayo. ang masaklap, PAULIT2 ng nagawa sakin. mahirap magpatawad. SOBRA. pero:

WAG KA MAGALALA. PAPALAGPASIN KO NA YUN. PERO SANA, SANA LANG... TINGNAN MO LAHAT NG GINAWA MO SA LIKOD, AT MATUTONG GAWAN NG AKSYON. THIS DOESN'T MEAN NA PINAPATAWAD KITA, LALO NA'T WALA KA ATA BALAK HUMINGI DAHIL AS OF NOW, MASAYA KA [ATA]. GAYA NG SABI KO, SA LAKI NG DAMAGE, MAHIHIRAPAN AKO MAGPATAWAD. buti busy ako, nakakalimutan kong galit ako. galit talaga ako. kapag inisa2 ko pa, makakapatay ako. ganon ang galit ko. pero yun nga, hahayaan na kita. WAG MO NA SIGURO IATTEMPT NA KAUSAPN AKO REGARDING THIS [SIGURO KUNG PARA SA SCHOOL AYUS LANG]... FOR THE NTH TIME, AYOKO NG MAGKARON NG CONNECTION WITH YOU. ayoko ng magkaron ng koneksyon sa mga taong niloloko/niloko ako. naging honest ako and all tapos iba ginanti sakin. nice. GOD BLESS YOU. kung magkaron ka ng matinding problema, advice: why don't you try to look up? someone's watching over you. kausapin mo siya, hinihintay ka lang niya magsalita. SOLO DIOS BASTA; God alone is Enough.

last advice ko na yan sayo. wala lang, gusto ko kasi maging prophet [seryoso]. i want to spread God's words in my own li'l way. wag ka alala, never na kita papakelamanan. kahit madapa ka or matalisod, sige lang hindi kita iintindihin. tumawa ka, ayos lang d kita sasabayan. mabulunan ka sige lang d ko papansinin. di na talaga kita papakelamanan. i won't get in your way. yun lang. im not trying to start an issue or any arguments. magsawa. im just setting my anger free. ang haba na. cge. adieu.üüü 

Currently listening to: HILLSONG
Currently reading: mike's msg
Currently watching: myself...labo
Currently feeling: ...sigh...

"mich... mahal na nga talaga kita."

- mike; my snickee.üüü

"would you be my girlfriend?"

- MYMP; kala nio c mike prn no?

Currently listening to: MYMP
Currently reading: mike's msgs
Currently watching: none
Currently feeling: confused

"i do not know how to start this. galit na galit pa rin ako sayo.i don't know kung anong meron sayo at hinayaan kong lokohin mo ako. sinungaling ka nga! tama si aliza! darn! to think galing ka sa isang Catholic School.O holy crap!parang wala kang pinag-aralan! ipinagdadasal ko nang mwala ka bigla dahil because of what you have done. Ano sa tingin mo? i loved you? excuse me, do you think i'll love a person like you? NO. Ang lakas ng loob mo na sabihan ang mahal ng bestrfriend ko ng ganun. laspag ka rin naman. ang sama pa ng ugali mo. di mo ba alm na sa impyerno ka mapupunta nyan? siguro hindi.. oh i forgot you're just finding your way back home.."

nilagay ni abi sa comment box ko, pangalan na gamit is I HATE YOU na pinapalabas na ako DAW. pwes, hindi ako. i put myself behind an anonymous name NOT TO ARGUE WITH SOMEONE. nagiiba lang ako ng pangalan pag may gusto akong pasayahin or something.

ang galing ah. andami alam. TO THINK NA GALING KANG CATHOLIC SCHOOL. sinabi ko yun a, pero binura ko na. anong TAMA SI ALIZA? e wala nga kami comm nun e. ayos ka lang? IPINAGDARASAL KONG MAWALA KA. I WILL NEVER DO THAT. bakit ako magdadasal ng masama? and who am i to say na sa impyerno mapupunta si ina? HINDI PO LOKOHAN ANG IMPYERNO. and wag ka mangaagaw ng expression, HOLY CRAP. [pero sige sayo na un. i won't speak such words na naman e]. huwaw. LASPAG. ask ina kung nasabihan ko na siya nyan. bwisit na amf. TIGILAN NIO NGA AKO.

please lang. ansaya na ng buhay ko. MAKONSENSYA KA NAMAN. kung sino ka man, wag ka na umapila. saka please, wag mong gamitin ang pagiging YFC ko. please lang, walang siraan. nagbabagong buhay na ako and all, nananahimik. tama na ok?

Currently listening to: Hillsong
Currently reading: comments comments
Currently watching: none
Currently feeling: asar ha

GK is Gawad Kalinga. hehe... ito yung service na sinasabi ko. Actually, it was only the CFC's project at mej sabit lang kaming mga YFC [ciempre magkasama naman lagi yun eh]. the venue was in Cherryhills, Antipolo. Anlayo niya sobra tapos antarik pa. maciado nga lang mainit and all pero that's fine na kesa umulan. SUNOG ANG BALAT KO. haha... antagal kong nagpaputi tapos isang araw lang umitim nnaman. ginawa kasi namin, nagbuhat2 ng hollowblocks at sako ng graba sa ilalim ng araw. i was working nonstop ha. lahat naman kami eh. paguwi ko naligo agad ako dahil anlagkit ko. hehe... un, then i noticed na na umitim ako kasi kita ko yung line ng tshirt ko sa braso and parang maga rin arms ko kasi lumaki siya. DAIG KO PA ATA NAG-GYM. nagpaiwan pa dun sila brother ran at kami nila abi umuwi na. PAGOD SOBRA, pero it's worth it. SERVICE ito. ansarap ng feeling na naging parte ang pagod at pawis ko sa pagpapagawa ng bahay for the people there. SIMULA PA LANG ITO.

isa pang service: MUSIC. siempre hindi sa makapal mukha ko pero kelangan ko rin naman ishare ang aking talent db? so tomorrow, may practice na ng band wherein i'll be on the rhythms [malamang]. magkikita nnaman kami ni ran. steeg. hanggang pasukan na ito. nawa hindi magkasawaan.üüü

yun lang. simba pa pala ako mamaya sa OLA ng mga 4pm. nagOL lang ako para magpost ng nangyari ngayon. sana hindi lang ito ang makaya kong gawin. as much as possible, gusto kong maging active sa mga services and stuff for God and for my fellow people [naks, ako ba ito?]. gusto kong tumagal sa ginagawa ko ngayon. ITO NA YUN MCHN.üüü

Currently listening to: Hillsong
Currently reading: none
Currently watching: SOP
Currently feeling: whew...

FUNK ME.üüü let's do the funk, let's do the first day funk. pasukan na tomorrow. anong meron?

>> ngayong araw na ito, hindi ako makakapunta ng band practice with ran. [ansakit parin ng katawan ko dahil ambigat ng hollowblocks at di pinayagan.]
>> namumula ang braso ko. maga parin ata.
>> masakit ang muscles ko, lalo banda shoulders. nabigla e.
>> kelangan ko ng pera [anne, 200 ko?ü]
>> mukhang tanga ang binili nila saking school supplies. parang hindi ko kasi kelangan ng notebook. ballpen lang ata ayos na e.
>> sa wakas, magaling na yung kagat sakin. humirap ako sa pambili ng gamot!
>> sa wakas, papasok na ako ng malinaw ang mata. humirap din ako sa pagpagawa ng salamin ko.
>> ansarap parin ng feeling kahit pagod na naging part ako ng GK Youth Building.ü
>> papasok ba ako ng naka-uniform o pasaway? civilian? hehe...
>> KASAMA MO SI CHOLO NO? PINAGUSAPAN NIO KUNG PANO NIO AKO LOLOKOHIN? MAAWA KA SAKIN JODY. - eunice
>> alam mo, mahal talaga ako ni cholo. kaya lang sayo cia na-engage. - jody
>> sakin nga siya na-engage, pero inaagaw mo cia. mahal na mahal ko si cholo! - eunice
>> alam mo, hindi ko na problema yun. hanggang ngayon ang galing mo parin magpanggap. - jody
>> bakit kaya ako nanonood ng Stairway to Heaven? haha...
>> kelangan pala, lagi na ako magsimba. ansarap pala magsimba kasi dati tamad ako.
>> hindi ako sigurado sa piniling kong course. dapat PolSci nln pala.
>> andami ko ng natutunan kahit di pa ako pumapasok.
>> ayoko maging perpekto, pro as much as possible, ayoko ng magkasala kasi anhirap magrepent.
>> I LOVE JESUS. HE'S ALL I NEED.
>> "hold me in your arms, never let me go. i wanna spend eternity with you."

yun lang. hindi na kasi ako masyadong makakapagupdate kasi pasukan na. hehe... sana matuloy pa ako ngayon sa band practice. kaso malabo. sige, adieu. kitakitz sa klase. hi-5 naman dyan!üüü

lyrics tayo dito. HOW TO DEAL - Frankie J

[Chorus]
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

üüü

Currently listening to: none
Currently reading: none
Currently watching: eat bulaga
Currently feeling: pagod ako

ang sarap ng buhay... isang oras lang ang tulog ko ngayon. as of now asa computer lab ako ng school namin. teka, bakit nga ba isang oras lang ang tulog ko ngayon? e kasi gumawa pa ako ng homework sa physics at sb sa filipino. it's worth it naman e. i got 95 sa unang sb. yung second hindi pa nachecheck. asteeg...

grabe, andami alam ng prof namin sa filipino. sabi ba naman sakin, matuto akong magpatawad. haha. ayoko sabihin na hindi na ako galit kasi natutulog lang yung galit e. hindi sa kinikimkim pero mas mabuti nang ganon na lang. ewan. di ko lang magawang batiin siya or kausapin. yun nga, hindi ko pinapansin. e ayos na naman yung ganon e. wahaha. wala namang gulo so ayos lang yun. ang labo.

WALA AKONG LOCKER. WAHAHA. LALN.

wala na ako masabi. SNICKEE.üüü ang kulit niya kasi inattempt pala niyang sabayan ang pagpupuyat ko. as in habang may ginagawa ako text siya ng text ng mga something. hindi sa naggugulo siya. sabi niya "kaya mo yan. hehe... kung andyan lang ako ipapagluto kita ng makakain mo. tapos tulungan pa kita e."  tapos, kinakantahan pa niya ako. ang kulit. wala lang.

yun lang. nakakatamad ng magttttype e. har.  INAANTOK NA AKO. waha. sige na, adieu.üüü

Currently listening to: my classmates
Currently reading: none
Currently watching: none
Currently feeling: sleepy

"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which one to do is the worse kind of suffering."

01. flashing your smile to someone you don't want to see

02. bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget

03. showing that you care specially if its true

04. finding a way to mend a broken heart

05. learning that you've been used by someone you truly love

06. saying "i love you" when you mean it and when you don't

07. letting go of a person you've just learned to love

08. realizing that you love somebody you've just taken for granted

09. realizing that you love the person you've just broken up with

10. waiting for promises you know she or he'll ever keep

11. saying your love for someone who loves somebody else

12. reminiscing the good times u shared together

13. shielding your heart to love somebody

14. trying to hide what you really feel

15. having a commitment w/ someone that you know would not last

16. trying to hide the tears that voluntarily fall from your eyes

17. sharing the one you love w/ someone else

18. loving a person too much

19. giving up someone you never thought of giving up

20. falling in love for the first time

21. loving someone you haven't seen

22. having the right love at the wrong time

23. exerting effort to make the relationship last or work

24. not being appreciated when you know you've given your best

25. taking the risk to fall in love again

26. hiding your relationship from someone else

27. controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend

28. choosing between two persons whom you really love you, you love and whom you thought needs help

29. finding out that you can never have the person you just let go of

30. seeing the person you love with someone else

31. learning that the person who claimed to have loved you so much never really cared

32. seeing the one you love fall for someone else

33. falling for your best friend and knowing that things can never be the same again

34. learning to trust after you have been betrayed

35. accepting that it was not meant to be

36. smiling when all you want to do is cry

37. falling and knowing that it can never be

38. not being able to love the person who truly cares for you

39. saying that you can never love a person the way he loves you

40. hearing that he can never love you the way that you love him

41. saying that you are over someone you still love

42. being friends again and learning to let go of each other coz you both know it is better that way

43. convincing oneself that you are not in love when you know that you are

44. having to let go because you know that he deserves someone else

45. trying not to remember how perfect everything used to be

46. knowing you are not perfect for that someone you love

47. you wanted to help a person but you hurt him

48. saying goodbye forever

49. hearing goodbye forever but he/she is still there in one corner

50. feeling odd because you can't talk with someone when you know he/she is there in just around the corner or in the same room

51. loving someone who don't give your love back

52. to love someone but to choose someone whom you think you love

53. trying to love someone because your scared to be with the real one you love

54. hiding your feelings that you care

55. keeping all the true feelings you are scared to let go

56. to let go someone you love

57. to know that your love is in danger

58. keeping yourself to smile, trying to go on with the life but things can't never go on the same situation now

59. scared to say you love him because he might broke your heart

60. you know that the one you love has other partners

61. laughing and smiling without the one you truly love

Currently listening to: American Idol 4 finalists
Currently reading: none
Currently watching: none
Currently feeling: tired

I WAS NOT ABLE TO

ATTEND THE CFC ANNIV

YESTERDAY.

wala lang. sa pasiklab sana ako kahapon. hay, kung hindi lang ako busy. asar. may na-miss na agad akong event! basta ang never ko imimiss e yung december youth camp sa sfx. üüü

Currently listening to: carrie underwood
Currently reading: none
Currently watching: none
Currently feeling: okay

"DE KUTSILYO, DE ALMASEN

HOW HOW DE CARABAO

DE BANTUTEN?"

*DON SINGING*

ABI: TANGA!

TIN: ANUNG BANTUTEN? BATUTEN KAYA!

DON: GANON BA? BATUTEN PALA YUN?! BUONG BUHAY KO AKALA KO BANTUTEN YUN!

BWAHAHA!!!

Currently listening to: DON'S VERSION OF PEN PEN...
Currently reading: WALA
Currently watching: WALA
Currently feeling: happy